So apparently she’s mad because I was so emotional the last time we talked…
How the fuck did you expect me to react when you accused me doing something (WHICH YOU NEVER SPECIFIED EVEN WHEN I ASKED WHAT YOU MEANT) after I tried one last time to see if there was still a chance we could be friends???? So yeah, I cried at your door. But I was confused, hurt, angry, and fucking BROKEN in that moment. I’m sorry I’m not a fucking emotionless robot like you.
And yet even after I write all of that I still can’t help but automatically blame myself and think that I’m a horrible person. I’m trying so hard to keep reminding myself that all I did was try to make things better and if you didn’t like it that’s your problem. Just because you think something about me it doesn’t make it true. You can’t define me.
Hoping like hell I start to believe this soon.